There is often anxiety leading up to these long pending encounters. Maybe it is independent of who is involved. Usually all the build up that’s been created around their expected disposition temporarily dissipates as soon as there’s good conversation. Yet is resurfaces. There is some fundamental truth to these intuitions about their motivations and the gentle hostility and defensive insecurity they do harbor from being threatened.
The cycle of ‘bullying’ continues. The inadequacy from never having found a strong enough voice, or fulfilling enough partnerships and intimacy or the constant competition and survivalist, communalistic cut-throatness of it all. How do some women of that generation overcome it and some don’t?